Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
"we traffic in awe and metaphors and are impatient with the ordinary and the expected. we fight inertia of silence and talk too loud in polite locations and there is no Ritalin for us. we don't succumb to psychoanalysis and the voodoo of easy answers. we thrive on complexity and ask that our monsters truly terrify us, that our lovers truly slay us with their passion, that our magicians truly make something out of nothing and hand it to us with smoke and a rakish smile. we seek connections with the strange and Communion with the brave souls seeking the truth- not the entire truth, but a piece of it will do- a coin of truth we can keep in a pocket near our valuables, that we can spend in those frightening moments when we don't know ourselves, when we're in too deep and some clarity would help, some beauty that could redeem and enliven the night. we turn awful experience and bad relationships and murdering office jobs and loveless parents and poverty and addictions and angst and loss and death itself into the fearsome gold of art. we are alchemists and con artists, acrobats and used car salesmen, liars and en lighteners, and we are here to do the earth's bidding because the earth is screaming out it stories and begging for us to write them down, and act them out, and draw her pretty pictures on the face of the clouds."
Friday, December 10, 2010
i'll admit it. i get really frustrated and upset that as soon as i tell anyone that i am finishing my degree in acting the first thing that comes out of their mouth is, 'oh, so you could teach that right?"
But, for as frustrating as that question is- and for how much i hate the implication that acting is an impossible career and i am hopeless at it- i must say that i do love teaching. i am afraid to admit this because maybe it means that's all i will ever be good at. But this past semester, i have especially loved teaching, because i had such interesting/incredible/energetic/talented students. They were the greatest reminder to me of how to have fun and still be hard working and excited about what you do. Every day i learned something from them and it was incredible to watch them grow and discover things about themselves and what they do... sometimes the chemistry in a class is just spot on. these guys were right on the button. thanks for the great times, kidos. i will miss you wonderfully.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
And I'm doing the best that I can...
And it's hard to be human being
And it's harder as anything else
And I'm lonesome when you're aroud
And I'm never lonesome when I'm by myself
And I miss you when you're around...
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
9th grade in Germany:
on his mission in Norway:
He's coming on Saturday!! Cant wait!!
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Our share of morning,
Our blank in bliss to fill,
Our blank in scorning.
Here a star, and there a star,
Some lose their way.
Here a mist, and ther a mist,
Jessica Wilson- i will always cherish my memories of you.
You will be missed. You are missed already.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
I must say, that if i were in 3rd-6th grade, I would eat this show up! It's set in a circus, it has crazy costumes, lots of instruments, sound effects, props- crazy things are always going on, and it's just funny.
We started the tour and the run on campus last week, and, while its been one of the craziest and taxing experiences of my life- it's also kind of been one of the most fun and exciting. It's so nice to have kids around to remind you not to take anything too seriously, even your "art". I mean, kids love this silly show and it makes me love it. For a lot of them, it's the first play they have ever seen! And, silly as it sounds, i like that i get to be a part of that.
So- there's my sentimental berb on the show- Please come and see it! Bring any and all small children that you know. I promise a good time. thankyouverymuch.
(we had our final dress rehearsal in a back yard- since we are a traveling show we can go anywhere- it was pretty great_
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Friday, August 13, 2010
Right now, i need oranges in both my pockets.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
bad day: slept in til 10- didn't juggle- got a flat tire on the way home from target- got told not to stand on the "furniture" at Velour during the Kira's band's set and felt a lot like 3 year old who just got scolded, lump in my throat and all- lost my cell phone, searched all over, then found it in the fridge on top of my pasta leftovers (latter half could be listed above)- feeling tired turned into feeling sick.. that cold i've been fighting looks like it's gonna win afterall- started saying goodbye for reals to roommate/provo bff rachel, gone for three whole months..
good day wins.
Friday, July 23, 2010
And! great night made even greater because i got to see really good friends i hadn't seen in a long time, and still more really great friends that i have seen but i just really like.
Sorry i didn't catch all of this song. i didn't want to be so busy capturing the moment that i missed it, you know?
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
i wrote and directed this little scene based on a section from the novel The History of Love by Nicole Krauss. I was really intrigued by Alma's description how her mother "never fell out of love with her father" who had passed away... and that in order to keep this love.. or "in order to hold on to a certain feeling, she sacrificed the world" (latter part = the title of the scene)
The actors in the scene are three friends from the class. the song is a bowie cover by m. ward.
it's a little try hard, maybe a little silly as well, but my first directing experience! cut.me.a.break.okay?
**things that don't read well in the video. Dalton (in the back) is hanging on a hanger.. Also: Next to the record player is a telephone.. Darick (the other guy) follows the phone chord into the room. She picks the phone up as he enters.. hangs it up as he leaves..**
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
**side note: I will probably spend the morning at the farmers market and then biking around in search of sluprees and mischief.. if you'd like to join in on that as well.. then you are invited!**
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Utah Theater Bloggers pretty much see/reivew all the theatre in this valley. I had no idea they were going to review Much Ado about Nothing. But they did! And I was glad to see it was a nice review.
Here is the review! (if you're interested)
This was a lovely end to a really nice experience. I admire the passion of these young girls starting up their own little theatre company here in Provo. Go see their stuff. (Romeo and Juliet is going on later this summer and Checkov in the fall.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
The other day, I heard an interview with Ben Bridwell on NPR and they were comparing him with Neal Young and all kinds of other musicians... One musician they compared him to, that I had never heard him compared to before, was Brian Wilson.
Come to find out, in that same interview-- Band of Horses recorded part of their album in the old studio where the beach boys recorded pet sounds.. i think i can hear the ghost of beach boys past (and i think i love it)
here is the evidence:
band of horses:
On my way back home- infinite arms
the beach boys:
sloop john b-- pet sounds
Friday, June 4, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
The first one is called House of Flowers... and tonight after a drive home with the windows down and the heater on, i read it-- all stretched out on my yellow couch next to the window.
True to form, Capote wrote an incredibly interesting and haunting story that totally takes you away to a different place. And also true to form, he employs some of the very best names in the story- including the main character whose name is Ottilie (isn't that the greatest?)
This is a little clip of Capote himself reading a tiny bit of the story.
Listen to it, then read the rest of the story.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
“When you ask a person to jump, his attention is mostly directed toward the act of jumping, and the mask falls, so that the real person appears.” -Phillippe Halsman
Saturday, May 22, 2010
1- "It was a Monday, and they walked on a tightrope to the sun."
2- "His voice was close to noiseless, but his eyes were louder than ever."
3- "Again,the human child. So much cannier."
4- "The kitchen cupboards were the shape of guilt, and his palms were oily with the memory of what he'd done."
5- "She was suddenly aware of how empty her feet felt inside her shoes"
6-"Rain like gray pencil shavings."
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Emily had the great idea to market these custom apron sets or bundles to Brides as Brides' Maids gifts! I am going to see what I can do about making that happen because I would love to have this much fun more often.
Sunday, May 9, 2010
-she sat on the floor next to our bunk beds and read us
(The Box Car Children, To Kill a Mockingbird etc)
-on nights when she didn't read, she would sing to us
-she home made play dough-- she let me add the food coloring
-when i was sick, she wrapped me up in my blanket and rocked me
-she sewed us Easter dresses
Just a few favorite things about my mom:
-when she laughs really hard her nose gets cherry colored
-she always smells like perfume. (obsession)
-she loves john Denver
My mom is humility and charity and love. She is the best.
Man! I really love my mom.
**oh, and seeing my sisters become moms.. equally incredible!**
Saturday, April 24, 2010
"I saw myself sitting at the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, the plopped to the ground at my feet.."
"'What about me?' she said whispered and shivered again. 'I'm very scared, Buster. Yes, at last. Because it could go on forever. Not knowing what's yours until you've thrown it away. The mean reds, their nothing. The fat woman, she's nothing, this, though... '"
excerpts taken from my notebook... the bell jar.. and breakfast at tiffany's (novel)
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Sunday, April 11, 2010
when i need to open my computer to work on things. i am going to open it- and work on those things. and when i am done working on those things, i am going to close my computer.
when i do not need to open my computer for any reason, but i just kind of feel like opening it... i am going to open a book instead...
(books are the new boyfriends, after all.)
Thursday, April 8, 2010
This lil' play opens tonight and runs through Saturday! It's just $5.00 at BYU in the Margettes Theatre.
Matthew Greene wrote this play. You might remember him, he also wrote Selfless: A Marathon Dance in 2 Acts (aka. They Shoot Horses, Don't They?) that we did at the beginning of the semester. He really good at what he does... play writing... and he is graduating, so you should come see this last piece of his here in Provo before he runs off to become famous.
Come and see it. I am sure you will laugh.
And speaking of almost love stories, I really love this:
Monday, April 5, 2010
And then, suddenly, your brother sends you a text message saying he is IN UTAH with his wife and little boy..
and then, BLAMO! you get to go spend a couple of lovely hours at ikea with your favorite brother and sister in law.. and also this adorable face:
i wonder when I will graduate to the big girl bed? (Twin beds are lame)
Sunday, April 4, 2010
that perches in the soul
and sings the tune, without words
and never stops at all.
And what is it that ye shall hope for?
Behold I say unto you that ye shall
have hope through the atonement of
Christ and the power of his resurrection,
to be raised unto life eternal, and this
because of your faith in him according
to the promise..
Wherefore, there must needs be faith;
and if there must be faith there must
also be hope; and if there must be hope
there must also be charity.
-Moroni 7:41/Moroni 10:20
faith. hope. charity (which is love).
Saturday, March 27, 2010
this wasn't exactly what i was expecting from panda express after finishinig my meal and cookie...
i get it universe! it's time to start a spring/summer work out program! you don't have to be rude about it!
(it's probably also time to stop eating at panda express)
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
and poetic lyrics, like this:
I’ll rent a house somewhere
I’ll listen to Biosphere
and all I see there
a straight line in the atmosphere
every hour will be longer
and I’ll linger with pleasure
the only visitor I will invite
is the whispering wind or the sunlight
I’ll leave all disturbants at home
the evening papers and the telephone
but I’ll bring my memories
I hope life will miss me
maybe this is wishful thinking
and maybe I’ll just keep on sinking
but sometimes it’s enough to know
that there is a place where everything is on hold
where the hours will be longer
and I’ll linger with pleasure
-ane brun (listen here)
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 12, 2010
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
The Deseret News was very kind to me, personally.
UTBA was kind to the show.
It's interesting being reviewed... I think I like it.. even when it's a little harsh.
Both of these reviewers attended the show on our FIRST PREVIEW night. Yikes!!
None of us were expecting that.
Se la vie. Come and see the show and then write your own review, okay?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
One of the loveliest books ever. Highly recommended.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
followed by a cup of mint chocolate hot chocolate (watching it snow)
listening to some ((home)) music with your best-roommate-friend
and climbing into a bed with just-washed sheets, in a clean room that feels like ((home))
cozy, is the word?
content is the word?
happy is the word. i feel happy.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
these are just a few of the containers i have justified holding on to.. they are currently taking up space in my bedroom.
i actually believe there is some incite into my personality here. i'm a holder. i hold on to everything. things from 2 months ago, things from 2 years ago.. it's what you might call a "suitcase heart" (if you wanted to talk about it lyrically)
The weepies suggest "letting the whole thing go." Florence and the Machine says "you cant carry it with you if you want to survive." And gee wiz, other people are so good at this!!.. so good at letting things go- at forgetting- at throwing it away when it's empty.
i admire this. i make it my new ambition.
i am closing the suitcase!
AND here is the anthem of the new revolution! RUN FAST!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
I hope that on your birthday these pictures are worth the thousands of words that I should say about you! You are the gr8est friend. And the gr8est person. i am sure that this year will be GRRRRRRR 8! (28)
ps. this better win me more points than Alex ;)
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
also: leona, i like figuring out how to play your songs..(gotta have patience for this one, the song starts about 1:45 into the video)