Saturday, March 27, 2010


this wasn't exactly what i was expecting from panda express after finishinig my meal and cookie...

i get it universe! it's time to start a spring/summer work out program! you don't have to be rude about it!

(it's probably also time to stop eating at panda express)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

with pleasure

it warms up and i crave folksy female voices..
and poetic lyrics, like this:

I’ll rent a house somewhere
I’ll listen to Biosphere
and all I see there
a straight line in the atmosphere
every hour will be longer
and I’ll linger with pleasure
the only visitor I will invite

is the whispering wind or the sunlight
I’ll leave all disturbants at home
the evening papers and the telephone
but I’ll bring my memories
despite everything
I hope life will miss me
maybe this is wishful thinking

and maybe I’ll just keep on sinking
but sometimes it’s enough to know
that there is a place where everything is on hold
where the hours will be longer
and I’ll linger with pleasure
-ane brun (listen here)

Saturday, March 20, 2010

first day of spring

kindred spirit n -a person who shares beliefs, attitudes, feelings, or features with another; also called kindred soul.

Happy Birthday, kindred soul..
from on coast to the other.. i hope i see you soon.

Friday, March 12, 2010

books are the new boyfriends pt. 2

"We're only really thinking when we can't think out fully what we're thinking about!" -Goethe

"Life in its paradox is a balance between boredom and anxiety-- growth and stability... Only when we are challenged, do we muster additional energy and focus. To obtain maximum meaning, we must be stimulated by challenge, but not overcome by anxiety. Challenge is good until it is perverted by isolating it from meaning... The problem with life and art is that means become confused with ends. Technique becomes more important than the meaning of the image.. The how of living becomes more important than the why of living.."
-Grant L. Lund

-so, at least i know that i am "really thinking"

if you have time to read the whole lecture "What Makes a Good Image? What Makes a Good Life?" by Grant L. Lund, I would highly recommend it. Especially if you are involved, on any scale, with art. It's really enlightening.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Critical Thinking.

Welp, here are two local reviews of Blood Wedding.

The Deseret News was very kind to me, personally.

UTBA was kind to the show.

It's interesting being reviewed... I think I like it.. even when it's a little harsh.

Both of these reviewers attended the show on our FIRST PREVIEW night. Yikes!!

None of us were expecting that.

Se la vie. Come and see the show and then write your own review, okay?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

the bridge of san luis rey (finished)

".. and we ourselves shall be loved for a while and forgotten. But the love will have been enough; all those impulses of love return to the love that made them. Even memory is not necessary for love. There is a land of the living and a land of the dead and the bridge is love, the only survival, the only meaning."

One of the loveliest books ever. Highly recommended.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Friday, March 5, 2010

the sound of the unlocking and the lift away...

there is something about having a good cry in front of 165 people

followed by a cup of mint chocolate hot chocolate (watching it snow)

listening to some ((home)) music with your best-roommate-friend

and climbing into a bed with just-washed sheets, in a clean room that feels like ((home))

cozy, is the word?
content is the word?

happy is the word. i feel happy.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa

i hate people when they're not polite.

the bridge of san luis rey

Pepita frowned, hunting for a word that would close the matter.

It wasn't... it wasn't... brave," she said. And then she would say no more. She carried the letter off into her own room and could be heard tearing it up. Then she got into bed and lay staring into the darkness... And Dona Maria sat down to her dish amazed. She had never brought courage to either life or love. Her eyes ransacked her heart.. Tomorrow I begin a new life.. At last she cleared away the table and sitting down wrote what she called her first letter, her first stumbling misspelled letter in courage... "Let me live now," she whispered.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

exit music

Tonight is the night!

First previews for Blood Wedding are tonight and tomorrow.
(offically opening is Friday)

(i like these rehersal photos in rehearsal clothes more than i like the publicity photos!)

the dog days are over

so, containers. i have to fight myself not to hoard them. i stew over every oatmeal sphere and cereal box before forcing myself to throw them away.. all the while searching for how i might justify saving them. shoe boxes, orange juice bottles.. everything. i always think i am going to use them for something clever and creative... i am going to be so glad i kept them. (this is rarely the outcome when i do save them.)

these are just a few of the containers i have justified holding on to.. they are currently taking up space in my bedroom.

i actually believe there is some incite into my personality here. i'm a holder. i hold on to everything. things from 2 months ago, things from 2 years ago.. it's what you might call a "suitcase heart" (if you wanted to talk about it lyrically)

The weepies suggest "letting the whole thing go." Florence and the Machine says "you cant carry it with you if you want to survive." And gee wiz, other people are so good at this!!.. so good at letting things go- at forgetting- at throwing it away when it's empty.

i admire this. i make it my new ambition.

i am closing the suitcase!

AND here is the anthem of the new revolution! RUN FAST!