Sunday, October 28, 2007

sunday with e.e and tree

i thank you God for this most amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any- lifted from the no
of all nothing- human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
-e.e cummings

Sunday, October 21, 2007

A Carrot is a Carrot, and i am an actress...

Little parallels and revelations about/in/with
The Seagull
(my life at the moment)

"Artistic literature is called artistic for the very reason that it depicts life as it really is. Its aim is truth -absolute and honest" –Chekhov 1887

"The Seagull is nonsense, nothing about it is true. It is altogether very weak".
–Tolstoy, commenting on Chekhov's dramatic work.
(thank you Tolstoy. Oh, the irony)

"If you should ever need my life, come and take it" Chekhov wrote that line in a short story and an actress actually inscribed it on a medallion as a gift for him (she was madly in love with him).. The exact same thing happens in The Seagull between Nina and Treplev. He even used the same line "if you should ever need my life, come and take it" and he loaned the medallion that she gave him as a prop for the show. Real enough?..

(I wonder how that actress felt when she saw the play...)

The Hunger Artist by Kofka (so many parallels)

Like Cursive said, "art is hard"

Polina says, "I understand" 3 times in the play to Dorn and once to Masha. No other character ever says it.
Polina is Miss Understand too...

Polina (Russian) means small, humble.

"You ask: what is life? That's exactly like asking: what is a carrot? A carrot is a carrot, and nothing more is known about it" –Chekhov

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

the question...

O ME! O life! of the questions of these recurring,
Of the endless trains of the faithless, of cities fill'd with the
Of myself forever reproaching myself, (for who more foolish than I,
and who more faithless?)
Of eyes that vainly crave the light, of the objects mean, of the
struggle ever renew'd,
Of the poor results of all, of the plodding and sordid crowds I see
around me,
Of the empty and useless years of the rest, with the rest me
The question, O me! so sad, recurring-What good amid these, O me,
O life? ????????????

That you are here-that life exists and identity,
That the powerful play goes on, and you may contribute a verse.

These days it seems like everyone I come in contact with is struggling.. the questions always recurring... the trains of the faithless and foolish and myself also faithless and foolish... but the powerful play goes on..

Chin up everyone! Let's wrap up in sweaters and scarfs, drink apple cider and laaaaugh.......

(thanks Whitman..)

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Still Life...

"In the world according to the positivist, the inspiring thing about scrambled eggs is that any way you turn them they're sunny side up. In the world according to the existentialist, the hopeless thing about scrambled eggs is that any way you turn them, they're scrambled. In the world according to the outlaw, it was wheaties-with-beer for breakfast, and who cared which crossed the road first, the chicken or the egg."

Tom Robbins makes me giggle...

Monday, October 8, 2007

..Nothing you can do, but you can learn how to be you in time..'s easy, all you need is love!

Across the Universe. Saw it today with mom. During one of the most intense scences she leans over and wispers "imagine what it was like to grow up in that. I did. I grew up then.."


Other Colubus Day Weekend Favorties:

GENERAL CONFERENCE!! Alwasy amazing.. I had many favorites.

Elder Scott was one of them.. so was Bruce D. Porter.. I want to be a better person.

*Car window is fixed!!

*One whole day, totally 100% off!

Friday, October 5, 2007



Wow, Anton, no wonder...

Wednesday, October 3, 2007


acting class

Everyone should take acting classes. In acting class you are actually graded on things like "personal risk taking" and "realization of your creative potential"..

I love acting classes.. What other class would ask you to stand in the middle of a circle of your peers and create scene without words between you and a blue towel... It's pretty much awesome.