5 words

being married is really great.



*more on that and other topics coming soon


(brevity of this post brought to you by the fact that the newly weds live in a trailer that has no internet hooked up... their iphones are the only connection to the information super highway)

fixed places

“Poets claim that we recapture for a moment the self that we were long ago when we enter some house or garden in which we used to live in our youth. But these are most hazardous pilgrimages, which end as often in disappointment as in success. It is in ourselves that we should rather seek to find those fixed places, contemporaneous with different years.”

-Proust

Right now

(amid wedding and all the excitement)

there is so much about coming "home". To Las Vegas, to myself, to understanding love and relationships and myself. I don't know how i can still be so mysterious to myself.. sometimes.

Part of getting married means that you are now in charge of all of your things. Every box and every old photograph. It's no longer your parents job to store that stuff up. Over the last couple of weeks, my mom has given me all the boxes that have been collecting dust in her storage for years. I haven't gone though it all, but everything I have gone through has been a so interesting and I have all these strong emotions about it all. I've really loved my life-- I love remembering. Sometimes I think about myself in the past and the one thing I love about past emily, is that she knew and understood those "fixed places" inside of her. Something about growing up made those a little shaky for a while-- but i feel like it's finally coming back. I still have fixed places, and that's nice to know.

One of the best things about the person i get to marry is that he reminds me to not take life/myself/anything too seriously. He is an enduring optimist and he reminds me that i am one too. One of my fixed places is next to him

(Probably fast asleep while he watches the rest of the movie- but next to him)

once in your life

the wedding dress

silver thoughts

Okay- just a few little thoughts for a breezy afternoon. I have spent the last few weeks writing and rewriting a speech for the fine arts convocation on Aug. 12th. If you are thinking to yourself, 'what the? Didn't you already graduate, emily?' Here's the thing... I "walked" at the April convocation because that's when most people do, and I only had one more tech. theatre requirement to complete (costumes) so I figured I'd just go for it. A few days after walking, I got a call asking me to speak at the fine arts convocation in Aug. I have been joking ever since that it took me so long to finish college that they are letting me graduate twice.

So, my speech is on developing personal character. I've thought so much about this subject the past few years. (I am an actress yes, but!) I think the reason I think about this subject often is because I have come to realize that the people I admire most in the world (fictional or non-fictional) are people who possess and act with strength of character.

At the same time, I realize the largest and deepest regrets of my life stemmed from moments when I displayed a serious lack of character... When my character was weak. It's interesting because in every example I can think of (and thankfully there aren't that many- but there are more than I would like) My lack of ability to act with the character I believe I could possess was a result of cowardice. I was simply too afraid, shy, embarrassed, confused to stand up and do the right/mature/character-ful thing.

While growing up is not always the most awesome thing in the world, I do look forward to learning from these past mistakes. I look forward to becoming a person with less timidity and trepidation. A person of stronger character.

wholly marvellous

what's whollymarvellous
myDarling
is that you &i are more than you& i
(because It's we)
e.e.cummings
(please put on your dancing shoes 09.24.11 and celebrate with us)

b.b. in the big apple

this actress, darling britannie b, is my best friend forever.
she's a festival, she's a parade! all the wine... it's all for her.

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(wind)ows open,nap on the couch.

“Summer afternoon—
summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language.”

-Henry James

!!!happy!!!

everlasting light

I'm getting married!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And just in case you might be wondering why i am marrying this young gentlemen,

or if you just don't know him that well, then i offer you...
and introduction to mr. champlin- the boy i'm going to marry and/or-
a brief explanation of some of the reasons i want to be with him everywhere:
::ahem::

#1 Crazy Smart: I have yet to ever bring up a topic that he doesn't know something interesting about.
(early in our courtship i thought i would stump him with
poets or books or theatre references- but not this kid. And when I called him excited from El Salvador after going to a zoo (for the first time in my life), i exclaimed, "elephants have eye lashes!" but he already knew, and told me a lot more about elephants. This is how lots of conversations roll.

He is so smart it's impossible for him to be boring. ever.

#2 Art: One time he made these sticker that really cracked me up.

#3. He is consistently doing things that crack me up.
And let's be real- funny does for me what Angelina Jolie does for most guys.

#4 When he cracks up he gets these really adorable lines in his cheeks (which have a beard on them-which i love) and around his eyes (which are blue-which i love), and his head bobs. its seriously awesome.

#5 He's into lots things which are awesome

# 6 He read the complete works of Shakespeare when he was a little kid (who does that?)

#7 He is skilled at the art of nightmare jokes
(nightmare jokes, incaseyoudon'tknow, are what he tells me when i wake up/call him in the middle of the night from a bad nightmare.. my favorite 3:00am nightmare joke involved Tom Cruise-you'll have to get him to tell it).

#8 He has a heart of gold. I cant really explain this one.. its incredible.

THE most selfless person i have ever, ever met.
he cares about the world. he wants to make it better.

even at his brokest he finds ways to send money to Sendai or buy a crochet hat from a woman in Africa.
he delivers flowers.

#Lastly (and this is by no means a comprehensive list) he is patient.
after two and a half years of on again-off again- up and down/all over the place dating, i nearly smashed both of our hearts to bits
(and i am positive i smashed some feelings of other innocent kind people as well, and to you people-- i don't know how to say i am sorry. you are not required to ever forgive me although i would really like that)

BUT he was patient, and kind and has always assured me that he would never give up on me.

I realize to some- this engagement may have seem to have come on fast and to those

I close with the immortal words of Harry

(of the classic cinematic treat When Harry met Sally-duh)
"when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone,

you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible"

eyes on the prize. mind on you.

everything i've learned- i have forgotten
everything i've forgotten is just like new

to be with you.

The Honey Trees - To Be With You (Official Video) from Simon Filip on Vimeo.

electrick children

Really, Seriously... This feature film (by becca thomas) is going to be so good!

I couldn't possibly be more excited that Becca asked me to be involved!

Please, loves-- donate some money.. a-lot-a-bit or a little bit. It will be worth it!

Donate & Find Out More Info. about the feature film here

salinger

he writes stuff like that.. the simplest things in the world..

and yet, no one else has ever said them like that.

i will always love him.

(quote from a short story called A Girl I Knew)

books are the new college

"He didn't tell them what he now privately believed: that Josef was one of those unfortunate boys who become escape artists not to prove the superior machinery of their bodies against outlandish contrivances and the laws of physics, but for dangerously metaphorical reasons. Such men feel imprisoned by invisible chains- walled in, sewn up in layers of batting. For them, the final auto liberation was all to foreseeable. Kornblum was, nevertheless, unable to resist offering up that final criticism to his erstwhile pupil on his performance that night. "Never worry about what you are escaping from," he said. "Reserve your anxieties for what you are escaping to."
-The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier & Clay, Michael Chabon

"We have waged war, or rather let a war be waged, against all of the animals we eat. The war is new and has a name: factory farming. Like pornography, factory farming is hard to define but easy to identify."
-Eating Animals, Jonathan Safran Foer

"There are times we demand an explanation when an explanation really isn't possible"
-Blink, Malcom Gladwell

"Truth might be stranger than fiction, but it needs a better editor."
-City of Thieves, David Benioff

the morning after the rapture

it's still raining outside

yesterday (today) & probably tomorrow

heavy, heavy boots

dear everyone in the entire world,

i am sorry for letting you down.



i'll keep trying harder all of the next times..
(if there are still any of those left)

sincerely,
emily

easter morning

In all the things toward which I feel
this kinship and closeness, I always find you:
basking like seed in the very smallest
and giving yourself greatly to the great.

Such is the wondrous game the forces play
as they flow so selflessly through the things:
swelling in roots, narrowing in the long stems,
and in the blooming crowns: a resurrection.
-Rainer Maria Rilke

if it kills me

this week: (extremely similar to the pace of previous weeks)

next week:

i am ready.

Finally

my final exam today:(i had 20 minutes to make a design that they handed me into a costume out of newspaper. although i wasn't in love with the design they gave me.. i was happy 'cause i felt a little bit like i was on project runway..

and then (since my hands were already movin')..i just went home and made this bracelet-
instead of studying for my real finals:

national poetry month

in honor of the month.. here is something old.

Be.Leave.

Be: you, T-shirt. the movies. running.
you and your shorts. you sleeping
you in my every-so-often dreams
that's enough for you?

Leave: you, logical. keyboards
you and the right answer
you, with some kind of unbalanced weight of hope
that i wrapped up in your t-shirt and shorts
you leave.

i want to be(lieve) what i thought you thought

i don't really know if you be.leave me

unbeliever.

i believe what i told you

and
i (want to) be lieve that what is
wrapped up in your t-shirt and shorts
will come back to me someday

it is enough. and it isn't enough.

this feels gigantic

so- last day of college classes... ever. i (literally) danced to my car.. danced. (people thought i was nuts!) also: thank you to Rainer Maria Rilke for this today: Memory And you wait, you wait for that one thing that will infinitely enlarge your life; the gigantic, the stupendous, the awakwning of stones, depths turned round toward you. The volumes bound in rust and gold flicker dimly on the shelves; and you think of lands traveled across, of paintings of the clothes of women found and lost. And then suddenly you know: it was then. You rise, and before you stands the fear and prayer and shape of a vanished year.

reelly?

everybody has to start somewhere

((it's a really good thing only about 4 people read my blog.))

The Reel Thing (Take One) from Emily Foster on Vimeo.

special thanks to my lovely roommate who spent 2 hours with me in the school library pretending like we knew how to make reels.

Swan Song

one small correction to the poster. the Wednesday night show is at 9:15pm.
the play is absurd. (literally) and feminist...
reactions to the dress rehearsal today included phrases such as, 'what the?'

words words words

speaking of

friends who are making movies..
evan is in my ward.. he is pretty great.
this stuff he is doing is cool and interesting.
support him and other film makers/philanthropists.
please.and.thank.yous.

such a great dadsmen

my friends make movies sometimes..
these guys might be your friends too.. in which case, you have already seen the some of the angel murkurker stuff.. if not, run! don't walk to youtube and watch their stuff.. especially the pancake breakfast one...
i happen to think this one is extra adorable.. because i really think james and rinda are going to be great moms and dadsmens.

art therapy

my friend, Dana is directing a play for her final project.

she is designing a set made of collaged/art home-made postcards..

i took the opportunity to help out..

and these are just a couple of the results

out my kitchen window

this morning

the play is the thing

sometimes... they make plays into movies



also:
sometimes people like Aaron Eckhart and Niel LaBute graduated from BYU..
((side note))remember when my current acting teacher played the original
Christine in the first working production of In The Company of Men.. (woah)

these are the hopeful thoughts that i treasure as i approach graduation.

Current Project

Fefu and her Friends by Maria Irene Fornes Directed by Kym Mellen.

I am playing Paula..

Dialogue: Act II: "...the breakup takes place in parts. The brain, the heart, the body, mutual things, shared things. The mind leaves but the heart is still there. The heart has left but the body wants to stay. The body leaves but the things are still at the apartment. You must come back. You move everything out of the apartment. You must come back. You move everything out of the apartment but the mind stays behind. Memory lingers in the place... "


Inspirations:


Happy Woman's Day

ellipsis

i want to graduate.. but i don't want to attend the last 2 months of classes.

i want the satisfaction/inspiration of finishing a book... but I don't feel like reading.

i want to loose 10 lbs.. but i don't want to go to they gym (or stop eating chocolate).

i want to be understood.. but i don't want to find the words to explain myself.

i want more money.. but i don't want to go to work.

i want to move to a new city.. but i just want to go home.


totally reasonable, right?

Out of Law

i, emily ruth foster, was arrested last night.. handcuffs and all.. you may think that i am joking. i assure you, i am not. the $302.00 bail out money missing from my bank account is my evidence and jon-thomas champlin is my witness.. what was the dangerous crime that provo police so efficently took me off the streets for, you might ask???.. an unresolved "fix-it" ticket for a tail light that was out in December of 2009..

i think that police officer slept a little easier last night knowing that his service truly helped protect the community... Kudos to you provo police. you made my life a little better than fiction yesterday.

january mood

the birthday bear

happy birthday, bear.
i.made.you.an.ice.cream.cake.

to state the obvious

Grad school applications= expensive

Yale application: check!

NYU application: check!

ACT application: All ready to mail off (and not even due till the 12th)


i am doing alright in 2011.