i want to unfold

Ira Glass on Storytelling from David Shiyang Liu on Vimeo.

one time, i was in college

(and all i did was text on my cell phone..)

2011 from Alex Shahan on Vimeo.

5 words

being married is really great.



*more on that and other topics coming soon


(brevity of this post brought to you by the fact that the newly weds live in a trailer that has no internet hooked up... their iphones are the only connection to the information super highway)

fixed places

“Poets claim that we recapture for a moment the self that we were long ago when we enter some house or garden in which we used to live in our youth. But these are most hazardous pilgrimages, which end as often in disappointment as in success. It is in ourselves that we should rather seek to find those fixed places, contemporaneous with different years.”

-Proust

Right now

(amid wedding and all the excitement)

there is so much about coming "home". To Las Vegas, to myself, to understanding love and relationships and myself. I don't know how i can still be so mysterious to myself.. sometimes.

Part of getting married means that you are now in charge of all of your things. Every box and every old photograph. It's no longer your parents job to store that stuff up. Over the last couple of weeks, my mom has given me all the boxes that have been collecting dust in her storage for years. I haven't gone though it all, but everything I have gone through has been a so interesting and I have all these strong emotions about it all. I've really loved my life-- I love remembering. Sometimes I think about myself in the past and the one thing I love about past emily, is that she knew and understood those "fixed places" inside of her. Something about growing up made those a little shaky for a while-- but i feel like it's finally coming back. I still have fixed places, and that's nice to know.

One of the best things about the person i get to marry is that he reminds me to not take life/myself/anything too seriously. He is an enduring optimist and he reminds me that i am one too. One of my fixed places is next to him

(Probably fast asleep while he watches the rest of the movie- but next to him)

once in your life

the wedding dress

silver thoughts

Okay- just a few little thoughts for a breezy afternoon. I have spent the last few weeks writing and rewriting a speech for the fine arts convocation on Aug. 12th. If you are thinking to yourself, 'what the? Didn't you already graduate, emily?' Here's the thing... I "walked" at the April convocation because that's when most people do, and I only had one more tech. theatre requirement to complete (costumes) so I figured I'd just go for it. A few days after walking, I got a call asking me to speak at the fine arts convocation in Aug. I have been joking ever since that it took me so long to finish college that they are letting me graduate twice.

So, my speech is on developing personal character. I've thought so much about this subject the past few years. (I am an actress yes, but!) I think the reason I think about this subject often is because I have come to realize that the people I admire most in the world (fictional or non-fictional) are people who possess and act with strength of character.

At the same time, I realize the largest and deepest regrets of my life stemmed from moments when I displayed a serious lack of character... When my character was weak. It's interesting because in every example I can think of (and thankfully there aren't that many- but there are more than I would like) My lack of ability to act with the character I believe I could possess was a result of cowardice. I was simply too afraid, shy, embarrassed, confused to stand up and do the right/mature/character-ful thing.

While growing up is not always the most awesome thing in the world, I do look forward to learning from these past mistakes. I look forward to becoming a person with less timidity and trepidation. A person of stronger character.

wholly marvellous

what's whollymarvellous
myDarling
is that you &i are more than you& i
(because It's we)
e.e.cummings
(please put on your dancing shoes 09.24.11 and celebrate with us)